bit here and there..

these past few days has been a bit inspiring for me.as i walked through the shadows of the past,the present felt so good..met a long lost fren,met new frens,met new beautiful(at heart) people,been doing lot of new things,just felt so gud..i dont know how to say,i guess i can put a cheeky smile more often..its fun.it got me thinking,maybe there's rainbow after the rain after all..i feel rejuvenated and feel so alive.funny2 feeling..im planning a holiday trip with my gud frens..its gona be the bomb..haha~!gile best siout!..cant wait~!anyhow,i like what i see in myself these few days..the right attitude on certain things..just need a bit charisma in it..then all should mean 'best'!!haha~. a quote from forest gump,"life is like a box of chocolate,u never know what u gona get"..amazing things,amazing gifts,i humbly thank u..

cinta tak membawa erti..

cinta itu indah,membawa ku kelangit ke7..
membuat ku terpesona dgn perasaan ciptaan tuhan..
menjadikan lelaki dan perempuan dlm berpasangan..
yang disatukan dgn rasa cinta dihati..

cinta mengajar ku erti ketabahan,
mengajarku erti kepayahan,
mengajarku erti berkongsi,
mengajarku erti keikhlasan..

hari hari ku kini sepi..
meratapi wajah yang sudah pergi,
mengenangi kenangan lampau,
mengenangi kesilapanku..

aku bertahan dlm kesepian,
bertahan menahan ujian illahi,
aku tahu kesedihanku kan hilang suatu hari,
dan ku mohon hari itu cepat sampai..

setiap manusia berhak keatas kebahagian mereka,
setiap hati pasti menyatu di satu masa,
pedih dan pahit menanti waktu,
namun aku bertahan..

sendirian memikir kehidupan,
masa depan yg tidak pasti,
aku keliru,aku berserah dan pasrah,
akan suatu hari aku menjadi lelaki..

akan ku berikan kebahagiaan kpd yg berhak,
akan ku berikan kepastian dan kesenangan pada ketentuan tuhan,
akan ku korbankan diri ku utk keikhlasan cinta,
akan ku peluk erat cinta itu..

namun kini,tidak ku erti maksud cinta,
tak ku mahu menemui cinta,
kerana hati masih terhiris,
kerana hati masih menangisi keadaan..

akan ku bangkit dari kepahitan ini,
dlm mencari erti kebenaran cinta,
akan ku teruskan hidup ini,
walau dlm keadaan sepi..

aku terima ketentuanmu..

Akhir cerita cinta

sandiwarakah selama ini
setelah sekian lama kita tlah bersama
inikah akhir cerita cinta
yang selalu aku banggakan di depan mereka

entah dimana kusembunyikan rasa malu

kini harus aku lewati
sepi hariku tanpa dirimu lagi
biarkan kini ku berdiri
melawan waktu tuk melupakanmu
walau pedih hati namun aku bertahan

entah dimana kusembunyikan rasa malu

the hardest part of letting go..

the hardest part of letting go is that i could never hear u call me "bee"..ur sweet voice when ur sleeping calling me, really struck my mind at the wrong time..knowing i wont be able to see u make weird faces,when u want something from me..the times when we joked around and wrestle..the times when the first person i see when i wake up late in the afternoon is u..the times i cooked for u..the times u made nescafe for me..the cheese ommelette u made..the times we took my sister out..the sweet msgs u sent,the letters u wrote,the pictures we took,the presents u bought,the hard times when we were broke,the times when u calm me down,the times when u say "everythings gona be alrite"..the times u called me "mohamad adly!!!,bgn!!",the trips we had,the movies we watched,the adventures,the long drive to pick u up,the smile on ur face,ur sweet scent,the fights,the arguements and how we mend things,the cries..every moment shared..all of it,gud and bad,is still hard to let go..but we know whats best for us..maybe trying wont gona do much help..its better to let go and give up..its easier if i could hate u..but i just couldnt.i realize it.the hardest part of letting go is knowing that u will not be there for me anymore..letting go,all for a good cause..