joy

there are few things i like to share here tonite..firstly i wud like to share about my family..being single again really thought me whats important and whats not..i feel i connect better with my family lately..its fun and a bit touching..aheh!.i kissed my mum quite often now..i dont even mind kissing her in public..love her much~.me and my brothers are getting along very well.its more like brothers nowadays..even my small standard 6 brother share his kiddy love stories with me..haha!thats nice..its rather flattering to actually feel love like this,from ur family.i used to say that the only love i truly believed in is between lovers.im beginning to play my role as the eldest..its nice to hear ur mum says that shes proud of u..she cries for ur happiness,it made me weak..for a mum cry for his son on doing gud things is very2 meaningful to me..damn,i love my family damn much!aha~

as im sorting few things this year,cudnt be denied to say i want to be able to give love and to be love back in return..i'll be honest with u,its been rough..but u need it coz u want to prove what u worth and u want to be able to show the girl that,"yes,ur my everythin"..how i wud cherish every moment shared,wud do the best i cud not to make u cry,wud do anything possible to make u happy and to make ur stay with me worth while..i'll always be honest with u..i'll keep no secrets from u.i'll call u up when u want to go to bed..i'll sing u a lullaby to make u fall asleep.i'll text u the 1st thing i do in d morning.i'll cook for u,i'll take u places uve never been,i'll shave my head if u like it,i'll learn ur every interest,i'll quit smoking if u hate it so much,i'll take ur mum out for karoeke,i'll tumbuk the chilis if it makes ur eyes watery,i'll let u have the remote control,i'll go window shop with u even if its the 4th time we entered d same shop,i'll never stop u from doing things that makes u happy,i'll give u space for u and ur frens,i'll spend the whole 24hours with u if that makes u feel safe,i'll share with u my past if u want me too,i'll plan my future with u when u want us too..love is the essence of everything..

here i am wondering how my life wud be with u around..wud it be rite for us to be together?..wud u stay with me through thick and thin..will i be able to make u feel secure? will i be able to make u feel that im the one for u?..will i always make u smile and wipe ur tears away?..all this questions can only be answered by u..are u willing to give me the chance to prove what im worth?..i can only promise u 1 thing,i'll give u my everythin..

its about time..

half way thru the year,ive finally realize that this year aint that bad..aint bad at all..all the suffering and drama before,the stupid actions,the judgments,the bad memories,has now ended.i just graduated..i honestly thought that this day will never come..i jumped and shout out loud for joy when i got the results..i was so emotional i got into tears..u see,i studied for 5 years and within that 5 years,my life was never steady..its been a rough 5 years for me..thank god its behind me now..even at this moment i just cant believe that i graduate..i was prepared for another screw up..alhamdulillah..god is kind.this 1st half of the year has thought me a lot..it made me a better person..i love the people around me,i dont miss the people thats gone,im living my life with new things,new directions,renewed faith,i just feel gud..and its about time..