fantasy living

u wanted something that i can never give u.u knew the consequences but u still want to give it a shot.i am no angel..sorry for not fulfilling ur desire.im not ur knight in shinning armour.no im not.i told u i can never promise u love.not to u.u knew about the girl that had captured my heart, but u still want to be here.im so sorry.it was never meant to be.not me n her,not for u and me.nope..not for all of us.

i realize u like to fantasize and to me some of it sounds too childish.sorry but this is a personal opinion.however,if by doing so makes u feel happy, just do it..keep fantasizing.i hope u will find happiness and success in ur life, i hope that u will find ur true love and finally be cured from ur sickness,n i pray for u to haf a gud life.i dont mean to hurt u,like i didnt mean to hurt those girls that came before u.its just im lost.i dont know what love feels like anymore.i dont know what love is.maybe im living in a fantasy too.with hope that i find the exact type of love like i had before.like when i was only 18.but i dont know.n i dont think i want to know at the moment.

somehow,it still does hurt.the past is not easy to let go even if u want to.but i haf other things to do now.a whole lot of things to do..score well in my exams n get good grades..be successful with my group voce, find a way to make money while studying,be a gud fren to my frens..so that is my focus for the moment..

as for love,ive lost it once,n im prepared to wait a lifetime for it to come again.love can wait.