Monday, May 23, 2011

drama xsudah

im in my holidays.its been upside down.i sleep in d morning and wake up at nite..bored to death!!luckily i'll be going on for some training next month.hopefully i'll gain some experience there.
what can i say here today?pretty much if u c that im writing its because i dont quite feel right about myself.im at the T junction.a crossroad on whether to proceed or to back out.im tired of these half-feelings.i need certainty and i dont feel im getting it.probably coz i demand too much or maybe its just because i dont feel that much.life is a very interesting playground.never short of drama,actions and upsets.lets just see what is there in stored for me later on.

daym i need to get this fats off my belly!!!!!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

officially the worst day as a student

it all began last Wednesday nite.after i received the cd of the filming for the opening gimmick, i started doing my editing work.i started at about 7pm and roughly finished editing at about 1am.after editing, i rendered the video that normally took up only about an hour tops, but it took a lot longer that nite.it took about 12 longgg hours to render the video.so i didnt managed to sleep at all because i need the video to be ready by 1130 the next morning.it sisnt work out in time, the video cpuld not be rendered in time for the presentation so i had to ask for an extension for the preview.i managed to get an extention,lucky but i was so tired by then already.

later that day i went to darul ehsan medical centre with my fellow classmates to cancel an event with DEMC.then we went to HEP to book for equipments for another event.then we went to hotel UITM to gather more information for the event.after that i went back home, took a quick bath and went straight to my 6pm class.

i was severely stab in the heart multiple times as i question why these things happen to me on this day. i was humiliated in front of the class numerous times within that longg 3 hours class.i was completely broken into pieces,my moral was crush and i was by the end of the class,DESTROYED.the lecturer hated me, and he was strong in his words to me.i feel as though i am nothing,a complete trash in front of his eyes.i wish he had showed a little bit of compassion instead of being abusive.show a little sense of encouragement instead of ridicule. i came up to him after the class to apologize for my wrong doings, and he further molest me with his abusive words.my moral was down to zero.never have i been made ashame of myself this way,never have i been brought down like this.never ever. i felt like punching,like kicking,like swearing..all emotions i have inside was about to burst and i let it all out on a piece of board.whamm!! i felt relieved for a moment.then out of sudden,tears running down my face.breaking down point, a critical point where i felt that never have i been embarrass this way.been made a fool.how i wish he showed a little respect, or out of humility, show a little bit of class.i hope god will show him a little sign of humility,show him that he is not god and that we humans make mistakes.i hope god will show him something.that arrogance,that selfless ridiculing,that abusive words..i hope god will show him.