unanswered prayer..

The way the things have been going have made me realize an unwanted fact,
you were never meant for me as hard as it is for me to except that,
yes i fell in love with you the moment i saw your face,
even after we went months without talking..

in my mind you held your place,
I had the heart for you then, still this madness is within me,
days pass by and you never come,
this is God's way of making me see..

you were never mine you weren't my answered prayer,
you just happened to show up at that time as for my feelings they came out of nowhere,
i wanted you so bad , I wish you wanted me as i did you,
i never got back much, yet my heart seemed to cling to you..

and in a moment of time has passed until now my hearts realized the truth,
no matter how hard i hold on, God never intended me to be with you..

what am i?

the beginning of my life is plain..
He put colours on my face..
He add characters to me..
He gives me funny things to wear..
sumtimes i put a smile on peoples face..
sumtimes i made them cry..
sumtimes i bore them..
sumtimes i irritate them..
but i keep on trying to please them..
sumtimes they left me..
sumtimes they ignore me..
most of them come and go..
when im broken, He changes the strings and makes me move again..
sumtimes the smile on my face fades thru time..
He came back and drew a smile on my face with a brush..
and people will come,and i'll make them smile and laugh again..
but in time,they will be leaving again..
but i'll keep on being me..
keep trying to please them..
with hope,that they will appreciate me..
this is my life..
a life of a....