to change for good..

looking at the title,at a certain age at a certain time i wonder,is this all that we are?i had a chat with a nice person today..she made me smile in the sense that im happy for her..shes lucky to haf someone there to lead her..to a better life..but how do boys change?is it through self experience?or by a help from frens?family?or maybe from a girl?..is it a shame to say that u change for better becoz of a girl?does it tell u that ur not man enuf to stand with ur own feet pointing out direction in ur life?does it mean that ur weak?everyone need some faith and believe to change..so to me personally,no matter where the inspiration comes from,at least ur a better person..regardless if its because of a girl or anything else..

as i think about myself,do i need someone there to make me change for the better?..i honestly say i dont.i haf enuf experience to get me going..but if someone wud come along and make things better,i wudnt stop that from happening..i do feel sometimes when i get too in touch with my emotions im tempted to do stupid things..but so far so gud..its been awhile since i get to that mode.i feel im missing something this time around.im not quite sure what it is..but i can feel something not quite rite..lets just see what life brings me in the future..the chat opened up few things for me..its for the better..this is gud. *smile