rasa hati yang mati

ku puisikan kekosongan hati,
di balik bulan terang ku termenung sendiri,
ku luahkan isi hati ku yang sepi,
di temani bulan yang setia di sisi..

aduhai kasih mengapa kau pergi,
ku rasakan pahit ku rasakan mati,
menyesali diri yg tak berguna lagi,
kau telah pun pergi meninggalkan diri..

malam berganti siang dan surut beransur ke malam,
hidup ku tetap murung dan kelam,
bilakan tenang rasa di hati?
amankah ia di suatu hari?

penat sudah ku terus mencoba,
mencari pengantimu yg tak pun tiba,
ku katakan terus pada diri sendiri,
mungkin bukan masa ku lagi..

aduhai sakit,hatiku perit..
menahan rindu,bak tertusuk sembilu..

dengan hidup ku yg terus xmenentu,
ku khabarkan ikhlas puisi pilu..

kisah cinta yg mati,
dan yang tinggal hanya ku sendiri..

tulisanku ini sekadar memori,
janganlah marah mahupun benci,

mungkin ini ketetapan ilahi..
kau tetap terindah sesudah pun kau pergi..

blue moon..

I wish I could remember who u r now instead of who u were before..
Coz..

Its funny..

I still miss u..

Even though things have change a lot, but something just remain the same.

It cuts..

It bleeds..

It hurts.

What have u done to me? To make me feel devoted to u?or what haf I done to myself to actually feel that way..

Don’t misunderstand how I feel..

I just don’t know why..

I cant explain why its not enuf..

Not enuf to not haf u.

I wonder when wil I stop having feelings for u..

Tomorrow?

Next week?

Or maybe next year?

Such a big presence u bring. Even for a year and a half now. u still remain here.

Shud I forget to love?

Shud I smile for u?

Shud I cry some more?

Maybe I shud just keep trying to ignore..

Stop coming to my dreams..

U bring tears to my face.