cruelty is no faulty

u might probably see some sappy entries in the nearest future.as i have always did, writing my way out of sorrows.

for some people,they like to twist things to the other side making it look like its your fault when in actual fact,it was not.i am a very reasonable guy with a very flexible mind.i feel like i'm a very understanding person when it comes to relationships.the idea is to put your partner ahead of you.by showing that u are devoted to making the best of things for your partner.i have always tried to give my best in relationship, though in studies i couldn't say i did the same thing. its probably because of my nature that treasures the experience more than the knowledge spoon fed to us.to me, it felt real and no one can take your experience away from you.it is truly yours.

about the title, what i want to say here is the idea of making cruelty ok. in context, cruelty that im talking about here is about cruelty towards partners or lovers if i may say.in the past i may have done something bad that made me the way i am to day.i am at the receiving end of what i call cruelty is no faulty.i feel i have been hard done by, i feel i have been in some way been made a joke.as though its alrite to hurt the feelings that u call your love.

i have always entered a relationship with honesty,genuine feeling for the person, and truthful.but its probably god's way of making me understand that sometimes,even how hard you try to make things work, it was never meant to be. 'redha' is the term that i need to digest.'takdir' is what i need to believe in.i don't think i should complain much about why i feel i've been mistreated.but it is always sad when u give your best shot and came out empty handed.

as this journey hit a bumpy road, i don't know how it would end.maybe i just need to keep swimming until i see the shore, even all i see is water.